Archive for May, 2005

I love you all.

May 29, 2005

Biggest news -> I’m doing my very first radio show tonight at 10:00pm eastern time. You can hear it right here –> K-IRB RADIO!. If you like punk, emo, screamo, alternative, old school hip hop and techno… I think you might enjoy my show 🙂 Plus you can hear my uber sexy voice, haha.

In other news, I love you all SO much. Thanks to everyone for making me feel better… I’m in a rough place right now. Call it a… quarter life crisis? Special thanks to the following commenters who put a smile on my face when I needed it the most:
Ashli,Erica,Jen(x2! – I love you boo!),Marsadie,Nick,Oriana, Roxy, Wes, Gachuck, and Alette.
And a super special thanks to Emily for your email – I think that you’re an amazingly sweet and thoughtful person, and I am going to email you back very soon.

I’ll return all of your comments tonight or tommorow. I’m exhausted right now and I’ve got to get to Troy’s before the Simpsons start (Not a new episode, but it’s still a ritual!)

A wise woman once told me that when I feel really depressed and ugly I need to think about, and write down why I am grateful to be who I am – look for that in my next post, as well as TONS of pictures from last night.. and a frightful tale of how my beautiful new Melie Bianco Hobo purse got beer spilled all over it 😦

This is what I need.

May 28, 2005

I need a social life. I need to feel happy with myself. I need to look hot. I need to get away from the internet for a while, but I don’t know if I can find the strength. I don’t want to be lonely anymore. I don’t want to fight with the ones I love. I need a fresh start. If I can gather up the balls, I would like to move far away from to here. I need to start living for ME and not for everyone else. I need money, and lots of it. I need a car, and an apartment and a cat. I need to get off the meds so that I can stay up past 10:00pm without help. I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. I need people to adore me and want me and want to be with me… and not random internet pervs – real life people. I want sex. I want someone to have an unyeilding crush on me. I want to weigh 80 pounds again – I want people to gasp in shock when they see me because at least they’ll be paying attention to my presence. I’m selfish, and I don’t care what any of you think. I need to get away from everything and everyone in my life and just breathe…

Free Ipod.

May 27, 2005

Hiiiii Everybody! Hiiiii Dr. Lauren!

New Layout as you can see! It’s gaudy, unorganized, messy, bright as fuck – and it suits me perfectly right now. I was thinking about doing something simple and stylish… but I’m not stylish and I’m certainly not simple. I hope you like it but if you don’t, I won’t be bothered. You can kiss my fat black ass! hahaha jk – My ass isn’t black.

My eyes hurt, bad – so this should be a quick-ish blog. I went to greenview aviaries today, which is like a zoo/park place, and that was fun. Sooo many baby animals 🙂 baby goats, baby ducks, baby geese, baby swans – I took tons of pics, so be prepared to see some major cuteness in my next blog.

I was just looking through my old old website (from when I was like, 14) Most of the photos I am WAY too embarrased to post – gosh I was an akward looking kid… with poor poor design skills, but here are a few that conjured up some nice memories for me:

WARNING: the following images are of VERY poor quality, as I did not know how to scan or crop or enhance photos at the time these were put on the web. Sorry.

Laura, Kate and I back in grade 10 or 11 I think… we all look so young! I really miss you girls 😦 Kate, I wish you were living back in the NT neighbourhood (represent! haha) instead of Ottawa!

Laura and I dissected the frog in this picture during grade 11 biology class. I then proceeded to chop it in half and place part of in the girls washroom (ya know, to freak people out). In this photo, I’m holding the other half.

This was taken in grade 10 – when I was 15! It really doesn’t feel like it’s been that long – but I’ve changed so much since then. A small picture, but a hilarious one I think. Brittany, Jessica and I dressed up and took pictures like charlie’s angels. Haha, we used to have fun times!

I used to smile a lot before I had braces. This was taken in grade 10 too, with my best friend at the time Brittany.

My brother and I, about to go skiing. We both look really young.

I called myself “Osama Bin Lauren” in this picture because I would cover my entire head completely before skiing – to prevent windburn and stuff. I looked like an idiot, but it WORKS damnit! And I’d rather look ridiculous than be cold.

Doing a cartwheel – proving that I’ve always been a show off.

I found a really cute picture from my Prom too… but I don’t think that my prom date would approve of me posting it, so I refrain. If anyone else pictured here doesn’t want their image used then let me know and I’ll take it down right away!

Guess what? I WANT A FREE IPOD and I’m going to keep bitching about it until I get one. I had a lot of people sign up, but no one completed any offers yet… so I have yet to earn any credits towards it 😦 Please guys… just sign up for one of the free things, or even better – one of the useful things! All you need is a valid credit card – and even if you have to spend between .49 cents and $9.99, is that not worth a huge, hot (NON NUDE) photoset from me? If I DID do photosets, I would charge a lot more than that. So help a sister out, get me my IPOD!!!!
That’s all for now boys and girls… I’m so tired. Long day in the sun 🙂 I wouldn’t have it any other way.

bunny!

May 25, 2005

EDIT: I really want a free ipod, so for a limited time only, I am offering the following deal to my visitors – Those of you who have asked me if I would do a pic set for them know that the answer has always been ‘NO!’ – WELL, if you complete one of the offers HERE, I will give you a personalized, exclusive, picture set FOR FREE – just for completing the offer for me! I only need 5 people to do this, so that’s 5 pic sets. I WILL NOT BE DOING ANY ADDITIONAL PHOTO SETS SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK. This is the only way to get a pic set out of me, so act fast before someone else steals your spot! email me – lauren@nakedbarbies.net – for more details. So, Who wants a free pic set? Complete the offer here!. So far 11 people have signed up, and NO ONE has completed an offer. You actually need to complete one of the offers to get a pic set guys!
/EDIT
Yo yo! I got an overwhelming response to my last post in the form of text messages! Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to reply to allll of them – but I did read them all and really appreciate them all! Thanks guys 🙂 Now, to plug a few hotties that took the time out of their day to drop me a much appreciated line – Ivy, Shaun, Leanne, Brittney, Jen, Erica and
Cecilia. Love you ladies 🙂 Also thanks to Sebastiano, Jason, Devin, Diane, and all the other anonymous message senders. I only got one creepy one… and I’m pretty sure that it was from one of my friends, lol. Oh, Diane: In response to your questions, I don’t have any sneaker pimps albums… I’m an evil downloader. It’s awful I know – but I have about 15 of their songs downloaded. I should by one to support them, eh? hehe. And my digicam is an olympus D-395… 3.2 mega pixels – very basic – but it gets the job done and I don’t ever leave home without it! Which brings me to my next point…

Look at who’s living in Troy’s front yard!


And it’s about 20,000 times cuter in real life. I’ve watched this little guy and his siblings grow from little worms with unopened eyes to this point, all in about a week and a half! Bunnies grow fast! This little guy was the only one left in the nest when I checked today. I want to keep him so badly… but I know that he’s still pretty young and would do best in his mother’s care. *sigh* – I’ll just have to wait until I get my kitten in September 🙂

I need to update my gallery. I take way to many pictures I think…

My weekend was pretty great! I don’t know if May 2-4 is celebrated all over or not… but around this area it’s party (and or camping) weekend! I went to a small party on Friday night and a bigger one on Saturday night… both were fine. THEN on Sunday we took off for the day to Grand Bend, which is party central on may 2-4 weekend. A great little beach town, with awesome shopping boutiques, cool bars, a huge beach on lake Huron (which is wayyyy cleaner than lake Erie) and TONS of people. I read somewhere that the population of that place goes up to 300,000 in the summer, compared to 20,000 and some odd in the winter. It was kind of rainy on Sunday though, and that sucked. I’m going back when it gets hotter with a bunch of girls, and guess what girls? I’M FINALLY GETTING MY LIP PIERCED! don’t let me chicken out, k?
On Monday we went to Troy’s brothers house, (in another little lakeside community) and went out on his boat and FISHED! Troy caught two fish, and I caught zero. It was still pretty exciting though. I love being out on the water. It was a little bit cold and rainy again, but I didn’t mind. Nature is so fucking lovely.

Anyhoo – that’s all the news I have for right now. I’ve started the first chapter on my book… I’m not so sure that I’m going to put it online anymore. When it’s finished I’ll certainly send a copy of it to anyone who’s interested (within reason)but my life story out there on the internet may just be something I’m not ready for yet. Or ever.

My new layout is finished… just waiting a few more days before I put it up. I’m lazy.

Word.

Melancholy.

May 21, 2005

EDIT!!!: Go here and text message me, FOR FREE – from anywhere in the world. TEXT ME!!!.
I love getting text messages… so do it – please! I may even reply 😉 – my 10 digit wireless number is 519-437-7749… yeah that’s right – I give out my cell phone number of the net – AND what, huh? No one ever calls it but my mom anyways. /EDIT!!!

I’m the kinda girl that hangs with the guys
Like a fly on the wall with my secret eyes
Takin it in, try to be feminine
With my makeup bag watchin all the sin
Misfit, I sit
Lit up, wicked
Everybody else surrounded by the girls
With the tank tops and the flirty words

I’m just sippin on chamomile
Watching boys and girls and their sex appeal
With a stranger in the face who says he knows my mom
And went to my high school…
-No Doubt, Hey Baby

I think this song can describe where I’m at PERFECTLY – except change ‘chamomile’ to ‘beer’ and ‘makeup bag’ to ‘digicam’:

NOW RECRUITING: Friends. Preferably female, but sensitive males (who are NOT interested in me sexually, whatsoever – homosexuals would be perfect) will also be great.
MUST POSSESS: An amiable physical appearance, an interest in fashion, gossip, and shoes, a good sense of humour, an outgoing personality, loyalty, genuine kindness, and a friendly demeanor. Cannot be opposed to smoking a J (or 6) and having a few drinks… but cannot be a heroin addict either. Basically… a clone of myself would be nice. OHHH that would be AWESOME! hahaha. Have you spent more on electronics and clothes this past year than you have on food? We’d be a perfect match 🙂 lol.

I need girlfriends, like mad. The very few that I do have don’t live close enough to me anymore (a la Jackie and Ashley) or aren’t into partying/bars. As much as I like the guys I hang out with, they aren’t interested in shopping and fashion and makeup and girlie things, and they certainly can’t come with me to the bathroom when I’m at the bar.

So if you live in my area (And I know you’re out there… I see tons of IPs coming in from my hometown area. If you’re interested enough in me to visit my website then I guarantee I’d love to get to know you – truly truly- I’m flattered as hell that anyone from real life actually visits this website. Those hits make me happier than anything.) and you want to hang out then email me and I’ll give you my cell number. Oh – I like technophiles too… because I am one.

So… y’all asked for it – here are some pictures of Troy and I! 🙂 awwwww. Don’t mind my ugly braces smile and unwashed hair.



I look badass with a guitar. Too bad I can only play Brain Stew:

Troy however… he can play. Really well.

I took this yesterday morning. She’s so beautiful 🙂 Dimey is and always will be my one truest friend.

I want to eat Sushi right now. I’m hungry.

OH! and Dina is hot. Thankyou!!!

Baton!

May 19, 2005

Everyone go ridicule this stupid faker -> reeeetarrrrd. I’ve never been on facebattle, and never will be. I love how she just took my myspace profile info and added in little twists like “I like people who look tough, but are really big softies” and “Turn ons include:
Sexy, well endowed boys. lol” – EWWWW. Get your own pics, and personality FREAK!

In other news, Pamela just passed me the musical Baton! I can’t let it drop now, can I? lol, here goes:

Total volume of music on my computer:
It was about 2 and a half gigs… but I just reformated my computer so now I’ve got barely anything! 6 songs… hehe.

The last CD I bought: Punk-O-Rama Volume 9 – it was really cheap and has some great (and not so great) songs.

Song playing:
Mariah Carey, we belong together

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:

-Daft Punk, Technologic – I am in love with this song.

-Billy Talent, Lies
-NOFX, My Vagina
-Radiohead, Creep “I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul… You’re so fucking special – I wish I was special…”

-Mozart, Lacrimosa heard.

Five people to whom I’m passing the baton:

Timmie
Jen
Jenni-Raie
Modi
Tonnie

That was pretty random… if any of you have been passed the baton already then disregard my passing!

I think that today I’m either going to get the ‘site’ portion of my website back up… or go to the zoo. Not quite sure yet… but in the meantime here are some lovely pictures of Maggie and Troy and Dimey and my house and me trying to be sexy… randomness to the extreme:

Tee hee! My face looks fucked up in some of the pictures with maggie, because she just loooves to lick my face! I always seem to capture the moment right afterwards, lol.

That’s all for now… ohh – and thank you for reassuring me about the shark thing – Now when I go surfing in BC I can be confident that I’m not going to get eaten!

Love to everyone 😉

BACK!

May 17, 2005

After a long, frustrating week, my site is finally back online and running again. Thank god. I was starting to go insane, muah-ha-haaaaa!

So yeah, last night I was trying to add a button to the marquee on this page, and for some reason the disk quota exceeded (my host has since fixed this problem, obviously) and it totally erased my index file! As in this page you’re looking at right now. Thank goodness I had a backup… but I still lost my marquee of buttons – so I’ll try to have that up and running by the end of today, because I love to display my lovely friends’ websites 🙂

Speaking of lovely friends, I love YOOOOOUUUUUUU so very much – I couldn’t ask for a more trustworthy and helpful girl 🙂

Anyone want a preview of my new layout? teehee teehee! Here it is anyways.

Yeah… very simple so far, but that’s just the beginning that I whipped up this morning. I want to have it up by the end of the week I think, if I have time.

I am so hopelessly and utterly in love 🙂 It’s almost been a year and half and I still feel the same way about him that I always have… 🙂 I need to get some better pictures of us together.

Anyways, I’m off to post at Angelah‘s awesome, bumping boards! And you best believe that they’re awesome, since I’m very picky about promoting forums and such.

Ta-Ta!!

Ack… this is so frustrating. I can’t access my w…

May 14, 2005

Ack… this is so frustrating. I can’t access my website or my FTP, or my Cpanel or anything that has to do with my website’s IP. I have no idea what’s wrong because everyone else can reach it… I can even reach it on my brother’s computer upstairs (which of course, I am FORBIDDEN to use – ugh), so I have no idea what’s up. I completely reformated my entire computer… lost everything. I saved all the picture files to a disk first of course, but all my programs, music, word documents were lost. So I’ve got to re-install/re-download everything again… and the thing that pisses me off the most is that IT STILL DOESN’T WORK! My host has been trying to fix it, xaxax is really awesome – but it still isn’t going yet. Hopefully within the next few days, eh? Would a kind and trustworthy samaritan email me so that I can have them upload a new cam image for me? Wouldn’t want to get deleted off of the portals! lauren@nakedbarbies.net

SITE DOWN FOR ME!

May 14, 2005

Ack… this is so frustrating. I can’t access my website or my FTP, or my Cpanel or anything that has to do with my website’s IP. I have no idea what’s wrong because everyone else can reach it… I can even reach it on my brother’s computer upstairs (which of course, I am FORBIDDEN to use – ugh), so I have no idea what’s up. I completely reformated my entire computer… lost everything. I saved all the picture files to a disk first of course, but all my programs, music, word documents were lost. So I’ve got to re-install/re-download everything again… and the thing that pisses me off the most is that IT STILL DOESN’T WORK! My host has been trying to fix it, xaxax is really awesome – but it still isn’t going yet. Hopefully within the next few days, eh? Would a kind and trustworthy samaritan email me so that I can have them upload a new cam image for me? Wouldn’t want to get deleted off of the portals! lauren@nakedbarbies.net

Gallery updates

May 10, 2005

*EDIT* I just recieved some awesome fansigns from the most handsome Siamese Cat on the planet, CAESAR! He’s Dimey’s dream boat 🙂 If only she wasn’t Spayed they could make precious little Siamese kittens! THANKYOU CAESAR (and Mrs. Lester hehe).

click the thumbnails for full size

And this one is Dimey, the object of Caesar’s affection. They look alike yes, but don’t confuse them! He’s a manly cat and she’s a girly cat!

*/Edit*

I’ve been a busy little beaver the last couple of days! (no pun intended)

I just put the finishing touches on my new, nakedbarbies Gallery! SEE IT.
I added back some of the old cam archives, not everything – but some! As well as some digicam pictures… yeah.

Sorry for the quickest of quick blogs, but I am going to go start on my new layout. I like this one a lot, but it just screams Autumn or Winter… and it’s summertime baby!!!